and it’s that feeling of home
now that the reeling has gone
and I’ve found a place to leave
my dog and my bike
when I leave them.
Altana says, Not lost
but is hidden.
Like the chances you’re given:
each a street you have driven
or the places you’ve lived in,
even cabbies don’t know
where to find them.
We’re alone but for
ebony and shade,
and the choices we’ve made,
and the plans we have laid
whether stayed or astrayed,
and the faces I shave
when I see them.
Isla says, If you eat that
I will be impressed. So
I eat it, of course. We find
little Mexican squash. And then
she pulls out her knife
and is cutting into bread
We pack the sandwiches with grapes,
there are people spilling out of bars, it’s Sunday.
It’s been a good one.
I go home
and get some work done
before sleep. The image
with her knife on the ground
in the street.
conditioned world. Ali is crazy in love.
In Austin, Ashley’s sail is
into the universe,” which Brian
has come to expect. His reader said the next girl
would be like the last (crazy)
but the push and the pull
To Ali, it’s the only way,
the only way to love—
even read this in The Times. Easy
love is not love
just as easy work
is not work. Be like flint
and steel in
to the other. Together
make fire and
burn out. Sleep easy
You are doomed.
I sit with Preston on the side-
walk of Potrero Hill.
It’s been a
I am eating ice cream
and sipping beer. Sutro Tower
in the distance
then not. It’s my favorite thing
to watch cars silently
crest hills in pairs
of lights roll through intersections
—what traffic signal
Clouds pass between
and behind Twin Peaks. Lights wink
back at me. Preston begs
to lick my spoon
and is scared of the homeless
collecting bottles. I give him my empty
and a full one too
and think about home. It’s late but laughter
in the garden. I worry
what it’s like to be young
and live in San Francisco. Try to pick
my roof out
of the streets below.
Having run a red light on my bike in the night,
I told the police drunks are driving tonight
who stumble and mumble of muggers and thieves
who don’t mean to deny or to lie or deceive
But don’t be naïve! There is murder out there!
And the murderers say there are worse things to fear,
there are serial killers who stalk and who scare
but these lunatics say, There is no terror here!
The real killers sleep in the White House tonight!
While the real killers sleep
let me run this red light?
are glowing. Nikki blushing in the kitchen
is a beautiful day. I remember once,
Danielle and I at
Four Barrel laughing. The barista
rule: namely, don’t pass notes
to baristas. Since flirting is a given,
Danielle argues it’s not
a technical violation
if the barista asks you out. And Nikki one day,
bringing home a rocking chair for her man,
says Listen. You push that girl
against a wall and lay one on her!
Despite the cold snap
they keep our new apartment
warm with that feeling of a friend
receiving good news. In this way, the winter passes
until a party in the Panhandle
when we count down the new year
at five after twelve. Drink to another
she says feels like
packing for a trip
back to college
to visit an old self
or inhabit it.
Holds a dress up against her:
I’ll need this and
need this, too. Won’t ever
the things she needs.
When she gets married
the next month
she’ll have the lightness of someone
whose closet is empty
or the heaviness of a suitcase
and ate shit
during the San Francisco marathon.
He’d been recently threatened
by the 21st Street Kid
on the porch of our place
in the morning.
Here’s something about calming measures:
speedbumps are the worst. People drive faster
than without. Careful—they’ll floor it
My chest still
That last week we woke at dark,
drove the open
Golden Gate and up
a hollow Tam.
Ears back and heart
watched the meteors.
Leave the car in the twighlit night,
so to see ourselves.
The tone, repeating,
keys in the ignition.
I crouch to say goodbye. The breath of life
impossible to miss in Preston looking at
sunlight! but I am late
for a wedding in which the groom’s
sister and the bride’s
daughter and the bride,
will be beautiful. I am all over Al-
berta and Mississi-
ppi, watchless but watching
hurry in the eyes
of passers-by. I’m embarrassed
by a text I sent
last night, but what are you gonna do?
into a printer’s shop
and find a letterpressed poem by Creeley, perfect.
“Ann made this,” says the woman
at the counter, points her thumb
behind her. But all that’s there
is the press rolling,
rolling the ink
down the page.
I’ve decided to take a mulligan
on my 25th year. Nothing
in 2009 counts
anymore, I tell Isla
You should grow
a Novembeard, she says. Isn’t that
a thing? My look blank and clean-
Or, you know,
a January moustache.
You go away
for twenty years. Come back. Things will be
two hours once
disassembled planes. OAK.
a tool box
but from no man
You know me.
Couldn’t. Father gone,
brothers came to blows
Married Chinese. Twins
in an old house.
Empty house, two-hundred grand.
How many fucking haircuts is that?
Old Tribune building,
the Old Tribune. Tallest,
then City Hall. So one day,
they put a pole on top!
Flag pole with a red light.
a hair cut
first day of work.
But that was the old place, which
they promised he could get back.
Then Oakland sprung a leak
and ran right out through BART.
It is a new decade, young
Mexicans on the corners
of your neighborhood sell strawberries
and the garbage cans in the park shout,
you will be fine!
So what, you almost got doored
on your bike, it’s happened
to all of us! I think that this is the year
your dog will behave!
Rain? Please. I missed my flight
and look at me.
Planes. Plains! We live in San Francisco
for god’s sake, let’s go up Bernal
in bloom. No, lady, you needn’t worry,
you’ll love again and you’ll get home safe.
Now get in the cab, darling, you will be fine!